my first free saturday

it's my first week from school. and it was okay... at first i was okay with my sched as it turns out i have one class which i dont know anyone.. at all! so i decided to adjust in another class of the same faculty. unfortunately, the section was closed.

i talked to the teacher and she let me go to the other class without even paying the late adjustment fee of P220. its kinda expensive so i was really hesitant in adjusting.

thank god the teacher was nice.

i adjusted to the class where my other friends are in. so i started to attend the class yesterday. i was suppose to take seat at the back but a guy told me that the seat next to him was vacant. so i moved my stuff there and waited for the class to start. because i already heard the lecture, i was able to answer the questions of the teacher.

i was the only one answerng the questions. its as if im the only who's there. oh well. so i try giving the answers to the chinese guy next to me.

at my last class i was talking to my friend.

"galit ako sayo! lagi mo kinakausap yung guy na katabi mo" i was really sure who the guy was. i just wanted someone to answer stuff for me. i wasn't really thinking. but when he told me who the guy was. iw as like... that's him. yeo's brother. okay he is not cute and besides i dont dig chinese guys. he is all yours.

so this guy was the my friends inspiration in learning in that class pala. they're all chinese so they kinda like his looks. but not me. so they were saying that yeo(UAAP guy)'s brother is in the class too. they were all like telling me in that drolling face and saying how cute he is.

the yeo's brother i know is the who looks like him in team b. but he is really not the guy. they're just look-a-likes.

basically, i really didn't care. it's just nice to have to know someone in class which is kinda hard.

summer is over... school starts.

as always we start shool earlier from other schools. we started to go back to school yesterday. it was exhausting coz i have three straight classes from 1140pm to 330 pm. to breaks at all. but it was okay my schedule is kinda hard to get...

break = loss of money

i say this because when there is a break you tend to spend money so that you wont get bored and for that matter you'll lose a lot of money. i mean from experience, i know myself that much that i would do anything not to get bored.

oh well. so school starts again. im not classmates with almost half the class. but it was fine. ir eally haven't seen the lot of them. but who cares. so i go to school yesterday midmorning when a girl stepped on me in the LRT. i was kinda pissed because my shoes B-E-A-U-T-I-F-U-L! i was so shocked i couldn't help myself saying the F and the P word. it just popped out of my mouth like a potato hot from the pan.

people were shocked they were looking at me like im a devil or something. but whatever. i was just shocked she stepped on both shoes. i mean nobody steps on both shoes unless you meant it.

well so i got to school just in time for my first class. it was a very hot day. my first class was in the third floor of my building and i had to run to the third not to be late. but unfortunately i really wasn't late. the teacher was. you may never know what to expet on the first day at those teachers..

after the day has ended... the usual thing happened i went to my usual tambayan and the usual my friends so me there and invited me for a cup of coffee and the usual combo. without knowing it. i was sitting there with nothing to do and not even pulling a stag. i mean not so usual. i've stopped for almost a month and a half and it was kinda funny coz everybody just couldn't believe it. even my cousins just can't believe.

but two days past and i still have the power. i'm not mesmerized by the smoke surrounding me. i survived.

today same thing happened. i went to school almost late for class but just got there on time... i was with the sub teacher in the elevator. i got in first. hehehe... and she even started to lecture even though she is just the sub... oh well... just plain boring.

so there... im back to school... something im not that happy of...

what's it been like over a decade

actually it been two months... it has been that long sine i updated.

nothing has happened really... nothing that important. after holy week we had our three-day exam. it was brutal. i didn't have sleep and i still crammed myself with those formulas and facts.

a week after it was judgement day. i was hoping i wouldn't fail anything because i was kinda baosting to my father that i was pretty sure that passed everything. and i really wanted him to give me the permission to go to boracay with my friends and if i pass everything, i would have a better chance of going. unfortunately my friend who was treating us to boracay had failed economics. it was sad. so now that boracay trip was cancelled. she had to have two summer classes and it would a total hassle for her if the trip goes on.

it was her birthday yesterday! HAPPY BIRTHDAY KAYCEE!

so i went to baguio with my family. a tradition that we go there every year because my and dad and all his other friends at work are going to compete in a golf tournament.

but it was a different trip this year... it was short and we were few this year unlike those other years we went to baguio with friends.

maybe because it been like a decade... things really do change and for a decade.... it must have changed a lot... i guess... i wish it would be for the better

happy graduation

happy graduation to my two sobrang kulit na brothers... [JL, Ramon]

its the second day of the week and i have no money left. im down 3K!!!! i thought i was having the best week already but NOOOOOOOOOO!!!! i was wrong.

bad move... i wont do it again... i just have to make bawi of the money... and then stop... if i'm up by a thou of something... basta...

im looking forward to kaycee's boracay birthday bash. i really want to come... but im scared to ask my dad... baka hindi niya ko payagan... eh people are expecting me to be there and if i dont come, kaycee's 4 other guests wont come. qand because of me...

it's an all-expenses paid trip for two weeks in boracay... and im in the program. im expected to sing for her or something... im kinda having the feeling that a lot of people would want me to sing an in their birthday... im not a one-woman band. i have a band you know...

unforgettable???

last night was the concert of INCUBUS!

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!

i was so excited when papa gave me the permission to watch the concert... after all the pleading and excuses... he finally said yes... i was crying na talaga kasi he wouldn't allow me... sabi niya "school first". pero it didn't end their... good thing naresched yung shipboard namin...

conflict kasi yung concert to the midterm-slash-shipboard namin. i can't miss that day kasi i won't pass ROTC... pero i was willing to sacrifice na ngayung concert... but then when i met my friend, he told me that the trip was resched already... so i checked it out and found out it was true... the first thing i did was call my dad but he wouldn't answer.. he messaged me "school first". deadma talaga....

hindi ko na talaga tinigilan... during class. my dad called na and PINAYAGAN NIYA KO!!!!!!!! WOOHOO.... i couldn't help but scream sa corridor during the class... as in when i got in... my friends knew that i can go na to the concert.... i couldn't help but smile the whole class and cut the last class kasi i was so excited...

during the concert... we were walking like everybody else... when we heard "warning", kala namin ng cousin ko they're just playing it... LIVE NA PALA YUN! as in we started running but my cousin couldn't run kasi she hid the digicam sa socks niya... so she was limping all the way.. to our belief na magcheck sila ng bags for camera... ang bawal lang pala is ballpen ang water... (kasi daw baka magkasulatan... or magkabasaan) bwahaha... funny talaga.

so nasically we were late as usual and we missed almost 3 songs... hindi tulog namin narinig mashado yung "megalomaniac".

pero unforgettable...

hehehe... ahd fun even if it's tiring to stand up on those monoblocks and stretch our neck because we couldn't see anything... but it was worth it... they were very good...

you should have been there... if you were.... diba???

hectic...

... grabeh ang hectic na ng schedule ngayon... ang dami na ginagawa for classes... sobrang pagdating tuloy ng summer susulitin ko yung tulog ko... as in..

reden... if ever mag-baguio this summer... sama ka... hehehe para hindi ka na namin pag-usapan. hehehe...

grabe torture... hindi ko na lam ang gagawin ko... dun sa mga nakakaalam ng kwento... nangungulit na nman si paolo sa kin.... yesterday nga... hinihintay niya ko sa labas ng EGI taft tower... hindi ko talaga kinaya na aalis na siya tpos pabaon bago siya umalis ay kukulitin niya ko.

sa march 12 na siya aalis.. kasi hindi pa siya sure dun sa school niya sa chicago... eh gusto niya university of illinois kaya punta siya ng masa maaga para maayos yung school... mamiss ko siya sobra...

well may class ako ngayon... hindi ko lam kung bakit lagi ang tagal ng teacher namin... lagi na lang siyang late... sana maaga siya dumating para maaga rin kami umaalis...

pero okay lang rin naman... kaso inaatok na ko... ang aga ko kasi dito sa school. 6:30 pa lang nasa school na ko... kasi magpapaxray and gusto ko una ako sa line and fortunately i am infront of the line. i was frist pero i had to wait pa rin for the xray section to open. and mga *20 siya nagopen... so halos ganun din... i was hoping pa nga to go to the library and study p-ero unfortunately i had no time... so tumambay na lang ako sa agno(my second home) and nagyosi ng mga natitira kong yosi...

badtrip nga lang nung kumain ako ng cheeseburger ni ate chat, tumulo yung sauce ko sa bag and hindi ko nakita... eh nagtapon ako ng somethng sa can infront of me... when i leaned over...my very white shirt touched the bag and with the sauce. so nagkastain yung shirt ko.

good thing i brought two polos with me. the ones that a friend would borrow. pero thank god i have an extra. so i have to wear a longsleeves polo and look like a complete idiot when the weather is
hot... sobrang stupid...

oh well... hindi pa rin dumadating yung teachert namin and tinatamad na kong magtype ng mahabang message. and mahaba na rin to... baka makwento ko an buong life ko if ever...

happy birthday!

it's my lolo litong's birthday. when i woke up this morning. i saw that my phone's light was blinking. and i saw that it was my lolo's birthday.

when i got home...

late as always...

just hanged out...

well it was tiring for my whole body and mind...(very long irritating story)

my dad asked me where i'd been and i told him i had an interview which was postponed... and they're alling me pala kasi they wanted me to go home early and i wasn't answering because i was busy eating. and didn't even find time to call or text them why they were calling

when i got home, i ate dinner and went straight to my room. what a daughter. my mum calls me a border because i don't greet them very well when i get home...

it's like i'm only a border in the house. i get home and don't even say hi or something. i just lock myself in the room and come out when it is time to eat...

but i have my days when i'm happy and i just greet them hahaha... just sharing...

it's my lolo's birthday. i wish i have known him or something. when i was born, he already passed away.

my dad tells us stories about our grandpa and i'm guessing he is as strict as my dad... "like father, like son". with all the stories i hear, i wish i was hearing it from him... you know... i would be laughing at my dad's mistakes and just be close to him or something. i never had a grandpa.

in both mother and father side. they were dead even before i was born. even my my grandma in the mother side. she died even before her husband. the only lola i had was lola rosie. and i'm not that lose to her. just when we go out, we get to talk. pero after that, i don't even see her during the whole week.

we live in the same roof but we don't get to see each other. if she's home im not. when i'm home, she's not. or she's in the other house. always like that... or we just like locking ourselves in the room...

happy birthday lolo! take care wherever you are.

because i got high

Falling in love.

Laughing so hard my face hurts.

A hot shower.

No lines at the supermarket (little marvel)

A special glance.

Getting mail

Taking a drive on a pretty road.

Hearing my favorite song on the radio that reminds me of someone. (halaga by parokya ni edgar)

Lying in bed listening to the tv in the other room.

Finding the sweater i want is on sale for half price pero hindi ko pa rin binili 'coz i don't have the money.

Chocolate milkshake. whippity!!!WOOHOO

A long distance phone call.

Giggling.

A good conversation.

The beach parking lot.

Laughing at my beautiful self.

Midnight phone call that last for hours.

Nung nabasa yung paa ko with those sprinklers i almost ran into

Laughing for absolutely no reason at all.

Having someone tell me that you're beautiful today (only!!!).

Laughing at an inside joke.

Friends.

Accidentally overhearing Chito say something nice about me.

Waking up and realizing I still have a 30 minutes left to sleep.

My first kiss (either the very first or with a new partner) SECRET!.

Making new friends and spending time with old ones.

Playing with a new old puppy before i went to school.

Having everybody play with my hair.

Sweet dreams.

Hot chocolate by Munch.

Road trips with friends hanggang kanto ng Vito Cruz.

Swinging on swings. actually sa sirang chair lang.

Making eye contact with a cute stranger

Winning a really competitive game (bet na hindi ako mag-aano kapag mag-aano ako nung saturday night).

Eating.

Spending my time with close friends.

Seeing smiles and hearing laughter from my friends.

Holding hands with someone I care about.

Running into an old friend and realizing that some things (good or bad)
never change

Watching the _expression on someone's face as they open a much desired present from you.(Gonuts Donuts)

Watching the sunset from the jam-packed LRT.

Getting out of bed this morning and being grateful for another beautiful day!!! ---------Friends are quiet angels who lift us to our feet when our wings have trouble remembering how to fly.

one hot day

actually it's kinda windy today. it's another ROTC training day but i didn't produce a single sweat today. the whole time there were no officers and we stayed the whole day in room M410. we had two lectures for the day... where i just fool around with the instructors. even if i was sleepy... i did get a lot of notes in the class...

but something happened...

my pen ran out of ink... so i had to stop taking down notes... and i became very sleepy and sleepy until i took a nap and woke up when we are having our recess...

recess: i had egg & cheese sandwich and a slice of marble cake. i wasn't full yet i don't want to buy another food. the food in that place is expensive. i was excited for the dismissal because i am going to buy siomai rice in agno... oh the siomai is good.

all good!

pero before i leave because im tired already, i'm gonna tell a little story. the one i was telling you about a girl on the bench..

well for starters, the girls name is kach. she is a girl found always at that specific bench with her friends and whoever just passes by. she's almost famous. but she has this specific friend that she wants to see that's why she goes to this bench, eeno.so all day when she has time or she even gets this crazy idea of just staying at that bench, she would. just to see eeno.

isn't obvious...

i can't write anything tonight because i'm so busy doing my homeworks. tomorrow i'll tell you a story of a girl in a bench.. quite nice to read about.

so i'll let you think about the girl in a bench. i'll let you in a little...

the girl gets to... hehehe... just wait!

soooo last week...

it has been a very rough university week for me. i have confronted with many things i didn't know how to handle by myself. and so what i did was just hangout and drink to it. i know in a matter of time, all my troubles would go away.

Monday (January 26, 2004) - nothing happened. sheng.

Tuesday (January 27, 2004) - nothing actually happened. sheng.

Wednesday (January 28, 2004) - Parokya Concert in Ampi during U-break. OH i would never forget the opening band. they were so good and the drummer was so cute(pag malayo!)... i wish he is cute up close and personal. they weren't the typical band who would be playing the rock or alternative or what some people look as the "noise".. the moment they started the soundcheck they got me mouth hanging from my face. oh they were very very good! i couldn't believe they were playing those 70's type of music.

and imagine. they were the engineering people so, they are very very intelligent plus they are musically inclined. the drummer was singing - twist and shout... la bamba... etc... i would give anything to get to meet the whole band. 100 PGI POINTS for yoU! they weren't the typical opening act where the audience were bored... they got the audience and they got good!

but when Parokya arrived. AAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHH!!! I wanted to run to the stage and take the microphone and sing witht he band. i just wish i did. they can't stop me... you know i'm big. and you know it.!

"tama na yan. inuman na! o pare ko tumagay ka!"

Thursday (January 29, 2004) - nothing really happened. hindi sheng.

i was waiting for james meneseses in agno for 2 hours but unfortunately he forgot he had to go home early. i understand naman. pero sana man lang nagtext ka... kaso ok lng din because my phone was off (low batt! buiset!) so it was okay. i was hanging out in my kingdom the whole night upto 6:30 with dream. oh he is so cute.. even if i didn't drink that night, i was drunk with all the hugs i received from him. we were fooling around and i got to hug him and he hugs me back..(dreams do come true!) WOOHOO!

Friday (January 30, 2004) - Battle of the Bands. i ahd to cut class becaus ei had to attend a cultural concert but i didn't attend. i just told the president to sing me up. so he did. thanks HERSHEY! so i hanged out the whole time in GP. this is not Glorietta Pour(long story! tell you some other time)... Green Place... had one bottle of beer.

just one!

i miss those nights when there were practices at my place for the bandfest. i miss the stage. the crowd and the music. i only hear them in my player. the shouts and cheers. i really cant resist. i can't stop cheering. when the band started to shout at the top of my lungs - I love you _____________(the band members) even if i don't know them. and i would shout it out loud when the band is setting up their equipments. it was so much fun. but i was so sad when the band i was cheering for didn't win. i actually cheered for everybody but the guys i knew didn't.

it was so much fun. it has been a very long time since i have shouted like that... except when i see cockroaches... they're just yucky!!!

Saturday (January 31,2004) - ROTC time. it was tiring actually we were soaked under the sun for two hours and we wwere taught by the officers to from our company and march around the field. but the most tiring part was the drop. we had to drop in the very muddy field without doing anything.

it was just tiring. when i got home. i sleep. when i woke up. i slept.

Sunday (February 1, 2004) - tiring. i just slept the whole day.

one thing. i wasnted to share that a friend of mine told me someone is admiring me because i can hangout with the boys... she meant that i was one-of-theboys type of person. that i could hangout with boys alone. and even if im the only girl i could still enjoy myself. i don't know why but im just more comfortable with them. not that being with the girls isn't omfortable but i mean im just used to with the boys. i can realte to them and play with them and fool around with them if i have to. i just can interact witht hem without worries...

no insecurities. not like other girls out there who has to impress pa guys to get to be close to them. what a waste of time noh!...

well just want to share that. but i was thinking of something my cousin, lola and i had talked about last week.

its about the abortion and the adoption. i told them that i was okay with it abortion. i mean just kill the child if you're going to give them away when they are out here already. i not saying im going to kill my baby if i had one. i'm just saying if you decide to give birth to the baby, be sure you will not give them away. i mean the hild has the right to be with their real parents. it will not be really easy for the child to grow up without the presence of their birth parents.

i just can't help but think of the stories whatsoever i have heard and so in the movies.

it was dreadful for the hild who has grown up knowing that she is with her parents bnut knowing that he not. that they are not the real ones. it was just sad that they had to be confronted with such pain because of one simple mistake of giving away your baby.

i just don't like the idea of giving away babies. i gave birth and he/she is mine. he/she is my blood and skin and i can't understand how some parents could handle letting other people take care of their babies.

because in reality, people can't afford to take care of the baby. okay. reason accepted. i just wished you planned before doing a deed that brought about the baby in the first place.

i can't really say. i mean. if the time comes that i would have a baby. i wouldn't really know what i would do. but if you think about it. i would never really give my baby away. i would maybe kill it if its only like a dot inside me.

all im saying is...

"practice safe sex"

but if you can't do that.

don't do sex at all!!!!