Saturday, November 19, 2005

getting sleepy

all my excite was gone when he left. i can't believe that i just saw him for an hour. he had to go. i wanted to go too.

the moment he walked out the door, i couldn't quite focus myself on the game. i was drowzzzzzy. i wanted to go home and rest.

all of my excitement for an hour of seeing him. not fair!

within that hour, kaycee with her presentation, the friend that i am helped. i was a feet away from him and i couldn't talk to him. instead he was talking to jeanette, i was reading - summarizing - typing kaycee's presentation.

it was all good... but now i'm sleepy. the house party is at 12mn. hope everybody comes.

Friday, November 18, 2005

its time for school

its time for me to go to school. i going to take a bath now and i don't know why i'm doing all of thisas fast. im kinda excited. and i don't want to be late for my first class.

and i still haven't got sleep. you just wouldn't believe that craziness... im still smiling. i can't take it off. even if my brother threw a box at me this morning, i was still smiling while i was shouting at him.

im so excited. im gonna see him again. i can't believe i'm still thinking about him.

he's right the top..

top EDGE.

no sleep just smile

right now i couldn't sleep. i have been thinking of what just happened this afternoon. its 3:50 in the morning and i still couldn't believe im hung up with it... with him. nothing special really happened.

im beginning to feel that im a very shallow person. it was just the usual thing. hanging out, chatting, eating, drinking, playing cards and the lot. but i still can't get him off of my mind.

got hit hard. somebody should bang my head with a very heavy object so i would wake up to reality. shake me. slap me. beat me up. im that hypnotized by the day.

let me sleep...

i can't take the smile off of my face. im look weird right now. imagine a dark room with me inside lying on the bed staring at the ceiling, and smiling... almost giggling. ain't it freak-o!?!

i wanna sleep but i couldn't...

i wanna stop smiling but i couldn't

i wanna get it all out off my mind, but i don't want to...

the duet of bohemian rhapsody

i really wanted to stay home and just sleep. it has been a very long time since i slept long and peaceful as i did this morning. for 11 hours, i had the most relaxing sleep ever. it all should be right? but this one is different...

this one made me go to school and be a very productive person that i really am. imagine me being productive in one class for the whole day and a regular meeting with my business partners.?

i call it productive!

today i brought my usually big bag to school. inside were my kikay kit, umbrella, jacket, wallet and cellphone. and the most important paper of all my friends' survey forms. i went to class and surprisingly i was just in time.

so class ended... i still had everything in my bag but one. a small pieace of blank paper. i didn't have my notebook that's why i fit all my notes in one small pieace of blank paper. i survived...

i was so bored to death that my face looked as usual - grumpy! all of this was erased with just one text message - from EDGE.

"pare, san kayo?"

everything changed, jeanette noticed the change of my voice tone from deep to perky. its been six days since i last saw this guy and he SMSd me.

picture me looking normal then just changing from that to starting to bite my lip then laughing as hard as i can. i looked uber stupid. but i didn't care.

the force is within me. i am falling hard... this guy makes me laugh. LAUGH!!! he's so cuddly. he's so cute and i wanna take him home with me. please?

we hanged out the whole day. he was tickling me the whole time. i can't explain it. but i think im falling harder for him.

i can't stop smiling

i can't tell the story again for the nth time but i promise you it is just a simple kiss in the cheeks and a duet in videoke with him of the bohemian rhapsody.

i'm still smiling. i can't stop my mouth to bend this way..

Monday, November 14, 2005

tambay with just cards and cigarettes

i have lived a whole week without eating much. my mum said i have lost pounds. she can see through my arms getting thnner. but i doubt it. but i still feel hungry all the time. i have the money but i keep on saving it all up for the cigarette. i am gonna die. this week i finished, 15 packs of it and i now can't even feel what i have been lighting up. as if its only a piece of paper being lit up by my lighter.

everyday of the week. i wasn't really into going to class or studying for anything in that matter. i have been hangin' out with all of my friends in this uber cheap place. santy's grill. they serve P55 worth of meals and i'm you're going to be solve.

i have been saving up but then in the end, i was left with P20 in my wallet. i didn't know where all my money went pero i know i didn't spend much. but i really didn't care.

the whole time, i was drinking, playing cards with my friends and just hanging out.

tomorrow i have class and the week starts again. but i promised myself i won't stay in school after class. im going straight home.

i promise

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