its all a blurrrrrrrrr

everything happened so fast.

october 16, 2004

happy birthday yot!!! it was yot's birthday. debut niya and iw as really excited and nervous din coz i haven't practiced that much for my performance. iw as really hoping i could go also to mikko's party but i can't ditch yot... kasi love ko tong person na to. pero people are expecting me to be there so i told forced my mum to let me go...

both party was awesome...

yot's party:
it happened in Patio Vitoria in Intramuros... i came there late and i thought i was but the party hasn't started. thank god i really wanted to see yot dance. so i got there unprepared and wasted as hell. haven't fixed myself. a total wreck!

got there and just enjoyed myself. a lot of iv-5 people were there and i was really shocked that one of my barkada was there and it has been a while since i last saw her.

we did some dancing, singing, shouting(ako lang pala). drinking and just having the time of my life... until i can't remember what happened. i sat down taking pictures in my phone. so i could remember that special night by...

mikko's party:
i got there all dressed up from the first party. DRUNK!!!! people are telling me stories of what i've been doing. i only passed by to say hello and goodbye to everybody coz my mum and bro was waiting for me outside.

i can't remember the party but i know i wanted to have a good time...

i did the problem was the memories of the second party was all a blurrrrrrrrrrrrrr.

a lot of people i dont know saw me drunk and a lot of them helped me out. as in kakahiya i dont even know therm i went there just to make a scandalous scene. hindi ko naman intention to be like that i just couldn't help myself pero i really want to thank all the people who were helping me. and those who laughed at me... kwentuhan niyo naman ako ng mga happenings coz i can't remember a thing about it.

i woke up the next day... walang hangover... asteeg i went to jogging as always. thank gopd someone gave me coffee to drink and according to people it was mikko's sister-in-law. ang bait niya. patch ata yung name niya well i couldn't remember talga... but my mum didn't even notice that i was drunk. isn't it funny iw as talking the whole time na sobrang wala na tlgang voice coming out of my mouth.

next time i'll let them take a video so i could see what i have been doing...

next time... later ulit... sino naman ang kasama ko...???

hahahaha

so that nothing will be blurrrr

CUT BACK!!!!

10:20-8:45pm

i was with kaycee the whole time and it was really fun. hehehe i feel like i can't get over the concert. the whole time i was talking to people i just can't help but slip little statements about the concert. it was the best ever. it was i think better than alanis'. but i love them both... next concert is NO DOUBT!

i'll be seeing you again alicia. maybe in new york or back here in manila

and jeremiah jamae... i love him. i love yoU!

a keys concert!

the concert was a blast. i never thought my dad would let me go. iw as dressed up and all for the concert and i was really hoping on seeing her up close... i was so excited. i have never been this excited since alanis' concert 1999.

the whole week i was so nervous because of the concert. i didn't want to spoil anything so i was really behaving myself but unfortuantely somthing went wrong. i forgot to text my mum that i would be going home late. i was really pissed off coz it was tuesday night that everything just went down with me. i couldn't stand up. i was so frustrated in school and especially at home. i couldn't do anything but just go with the flow of the day.

the days went by and nothing seemed right anymore.

but saturday was just my day. i was kinda feeling that i would be going but i wasn't sure if it would be a legal gimik.

we got there... a little late for the front act but just in time fos us to get comfortable.

AK! you rock!

im gonna rock wit you!

break

actually my break started last august 25. fun times i could say. i've been in and out of the house and at times sneak out to meet up with my friends.

im back to my old habit. but not for long. i promised myself that when the next term starts, i would be really fousing on my studies. i have to get my grades higher than before so i wont have a problem in the end.

a whole lot of nights pigouts and drinking out and finally, i took my driving lessons.

movies and music just plain fun...

i enjoyed every minute of it.

boracay in the middle of the term

it was a week after my birthday. my mum told me she was going to boracay with my aunts, who just came from japan. well i was kinda excited coz when i asked her when she said september 6,7,8,9,10. and by that time i would be having my term break.

woohoo...

but then the trip unfortunately was this month.

i still got to go top boracay. people are asking me that wouldn't i not enjoy coz it's already raining. but still its boracay so whatever... im went...

i love the beach...

when i got there... i was kinda freaking out coz nobody was there to pick me up. i was kinda excited as well becauase im in caticlan already and a boat away to boracay.

some problem in the welcoming area but nothing to worry about. my mum as always got into a fight with the clerk or something. that day, it was very sunny. i loved it. i really didn't care that i was alone in the boat. i kept taking pictures from my phone in the boat.

we stayed in fairways and bluewaters. a very exclusive place for members only but because of the famous toti carino... thanks by the way! we got a free place... but the food wasn't free...

AMAZING! the place was just amazing. everyday i can see the sky so blue. the sun so bright and the weather - just GREAT! the lord wants me to have fun. i have been very busy in my studies that i dont have time for relaxing already. im always in school until night trying to finish a lot oif project papers.

this time im relaxed. nobody is to disturb me. im going to be having my sun bathing. hehehe there was this funny moment when i said im just going to be lying down the beach for like 5 minutes but unfortunately because i was so tired, i have fallen asleep. and my mum woke me up and that's when i really got dark.

the best part of the trip was the jetski. it was my first time to ride it AND BEST PART WAS DRIVING IT. i really wanted to try it and there was my chance.

tip: when riding the jetski wear a sunglass or something so that the splash of the water wont get into your eyes. it burns...

it was so fun. i went shopping for lots of accessories. i should have gotten my henna tattoo but i figured i wouldn't be appropriately looking when doing my class presentation in school. just not corporate and good looking.

so well don't be afraid of the sun. explore the beach even if it's raining. you'll love it.

so friends. next time i go there... i would be with you guys... let's play under the sun next summer...

my first free saturday

it's my first week from school. and it was okay... at first i was okay with my sched as it turns out i have one class which i dont know anyone.. at all! so i decided to adjust in another class of the same faculty. unfortunately, the section was closed.

i talked to the teacher and she let me go to the other class without even paying the late adjustment fee of P220. its kinda expensive so i was really hesitant in adjusting.

thank god the teacher was nice.

i adjusted to the class where my other friends are in. so i started to attend the class yesterday. i was suppose to take seat at the back but a guy told me that the seat next to him was vacant. so i moved my stuff there and waited for the class to start. because i already heard the lecture, i was able to answer the questions of the teacher.

i was the only one answerng the questions. its as if im the only who's there. oh well. so i try giving the answers to the chinese guy next to me.

at my last class i was talking to my friend.

"galit ako sayo! lagi mo kinakausap yung guy na katabi mo" i was really sure who the guy was. i just wanted someone to answer stuff for me. i wasn't really thinking. but when he told me who the guy was. iw as like... that's him. yeo's brother. okay he is not cute and besides i dont dig chinese guys. he is all yours.

so this guy was the my friends inspiration in learning in that class pala. they're all chinese so they kinda like his looks. but not me. so they were saying that yeo(UAAP guy)'s brother is in the class too. they were all like telling me in that drolling face and saying how cute he is.

the yeo's brother i know is the who looks like him in team b. but he is really not the guy. they're just look-a-likes.

basically, i really didn't care. it's just nice to have to know someone in class which is kinda hard.

summer is over... school starts.

as always we start shool earlier from other schools. we started to go back to school yesterday. it was exhausting coz i have three straight classes from 1140pm to 330 pm. to breaks at all. but it was okay my schedule is kinda hard to get...

break = loss of money

i say this because when there is a break you tend to spend money so that you wont get bored and for that matter you'll lose a lot of money. i mean from experience, i know myself that much that i would do anything not to get bored.

oh well. so school starts again. im not classmates with almost half the class. but it was fine. ir eally haven't seen the lot of them. but who cares. so i go to school yesterday midmorning when a girl stepped on me in the LRT. i was kinda pissed because my shoes B-E-A-U-T-I-F-U-L! i was so shocked i couldn't help myself saying the F and the P word. it just popped out of my mouth like a potato hot from the pan.

people were shocked they were looking at me like im a devil or something. but whatever. i was just shocked she stepped on both shoes. i mean nobody steps on both shoes unless you meant it.

well so i got to school just in time for my first class. it was a very hot day. my first class was in the third floor of my building and i had to run to the third not to be late. but unfortunately i really wasn't late. the teacher was. you may never know what to expet on the first day at those teachers..

after the day has ended... the usual thing happened i went to my usual tambayan and the usual my friends so me there and invited me for a cup of coffee and the usual combo. without knowing it. i was sitting there with nothing to do and not even pulling a stag. i mean not so usual. i've stopped for almost a month and a half and it was kinda funny coz everybody just couldn't believe it. even my cousins just can't believe.

but two days past and i still have the power. i'm not mesmerized by the smoke surrounding me. i survived.

today same thing happened. i went to school almost late for class but just got there on time... i was with the sub teacher in the elevator. i got in first. hehehe... and she even started to lecture even though she is just the sub... oh well... just plain boring.

so there... im back to school... something im not that happy of...

what's it been like over a decade

actually it been two months... it has been that long sine i updated.

nothing has happened really... nothing that important. after holy week we had our three-day exam. it was brutal. i didn't have sleep and i still crammed myself with those formulas and facts.

a week after it was judgement day. i was hoping i wouldn't fail anything because i was kinda baosting to my father that i was pretty sure that passed everything. and i really wanted him to give me the permission to go to boracay with my friends and if i pass everything, i would have a better chance of going. unfortunately my friend who was treating us to boracay had failed economics. it was sad. so now that boracay trip was cancelled. she had to have two summer classes and it would a total hassle for her if the trip goes on.

it was her birthday yesterday! HAPPY BIRTHDAY KAYCEE!

so i went to baguio with my family. a tradition that we go there every year because my and dad and all his other friends at work are going to compete in a golf tournament.

but it was a different trip this year... it was short and we were few this year unlike those other years we went to baguio with friends.

maybe because it been like a decade... things really do change and for a decade.... it must have changed a lot... i guess... i wish it would be for the better

happy graduation

happy graduation to my two sobrang kulit na brothers... [JL, Ramon]

its the second day of the week and i have no money left. im down 3K!!!! i thought i was having the best week already but NOOOOOOOOOO!!!! i was wrong.

bad move... i wont do it again... i just have to make bawi of the money... and then stop... if i'm up by a thou of something... basta...

im looking forward to kaycee's boracay birthday bash. i really want to come... but im scared to ask my dad... baka hindi niya ko payagan... eh people are expecting me to be there and if i dont come, kaycee's 4 other guests wont come. qand because of me...

it's an all-expenses paid trip for two weeks in boracay... and im in the program. im expected to sing for her or something... im kinda having the feeling that a lot of people would want me to sing an in their birthday... im not a one-woman band. i have a band you know...

unforgettable???

last night was the concert of INCUBUS!

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!

i was so excited when papa gave me the permission to watch the concert... after all the pleading and excuses... he finally said yes... i was crying na talaga kasi he wouldn't allow me... sabi niya "school first". pero it didn't end their... good thing naresched yung shipboard namin...

conflict kasi yung concert to the midterm-slash-shipboard namin. i can't miss that day kasi i won't pass ROTC... pero i was willing to sacrifice na ngayung concert... but then when i met my friend, he told me that the trip was resched already... so i checked it out and found out it was true... the first thing i did was call my dad but he wouldn't answer.. he messaged me "school first". deadma talaga....

hindi ko na talaga tinigilan... during class. my dad called na and PINAYAGAN NIYA KO!!!!!!!! WOOHOO.... i couldn't help but scream sa corridor during the class... as in when i got in... my friends knew that i can go na to the concert.... i couldn't help but smile the whole class and cut the last class kasi i was so excited...

during the concert... we were walking like everybody else... when we heard "warning", kala namin ng cousin ko they're just playing it... LIVE NA PALA YUN! as in we started running but my cousin couldn't run kasi she hid the digicam sa socks niya... so she was limping all the way.. to our belief na magcheck sila ng bags for camera... ang bawal lang pala is ballpen ang water... (kasi daw baka magkasulatan... or magkabasaan) bwahaha... funny talaga.

so nasically we were late as usual and we missed almost 3 songs... hindi tulog namin narinig mashado yung "megalomaniac".

pero unforgettable...

hehehe... ahd fun even if it's tiring to stand up on those monoblocks and stretch our neck because we couldn't see anything... but it was worth it... they were very good...

you should have been there... if you were.... diba???

hectic...

... grabeh ang hectic na ng schedule ngayon... ang dami na ginagawa for classes... sobrang pagdating tuloy ng summer susulitin ko yung tulog ko... as in..

reden... if ever mag-baguio this summer... sama ka... hehehe para hindi ka na namin pag-usapan. hehehe...

grabe torture... hindi ko na lam ang gagawin ko... dun sa mga nakakaalam ng kwento... nangungulit na nman si paolo sa kin.... yesterday nga... hinihintay niya ko sa labas ng EGI taft tower... hindi ko talaga kinaya na aalis na siya tpos pabaon bago siya umalis ay kukulitin niya ko.

sa march 12 na siya aalis.. kasi hindi pa siya sure dun sa school niya sa chicago... eh gusto niya university of illinois kaya punta siya ng masa maaga para maayos yung school... mamiss ko siya sobra...

well may class ako ngayon... hindi ko lam kung bakit lagi ang tagal ng teacher namin... lagi na lang siyang late... sana maaga siya dumating para maaga rin kami umaalis...

pero okay lang rin naman... kaso inaatok na ko... ang aga ko kasi dito sa school. 6:30 pa lang nasa school na ko... kasi magpapaxray and gusto ko una ako sa line and fortunately i am infront of the line. i was frist pero i had to wait pa rin for the xray section to open. and mga *20 siya nagopen... so halos ganun din... i was hoping pa nga to go to the library and study p-ero unfortunately i had no time... so tumambay na lang ako sa agno(my second home) and nagyosi ng mga natitira kong yosi...

badtrip nga lang nung kumain ako ng cheeseburger ni ate chat, tumulo yung sauce ko sa bag and hindi ko nakita... eh nagtapon ako ng somethng sa can infront of me... when i leaned over...my very white shirt touched the bag and with the sauce. so nagkastain yung shirt ko.

good thing i brought two polos with me. the ones that a friend would borrow. pero thank god i have an extra. so i have to wear a longsleeves polo and look like a complete idiot when the weather is
hot... sobrang stupid...

oh well... hindi pa rin dumadating yung teachert namin and tinatamad na kong magtype ng mahabang message. and mahaba na rin to... baka makwento ko an buong life ko if ever...