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its my birthday!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!

tina's back

for this weekend, i guess it was longest that i didn't like. the whole time it was raining and you can't get anywhere without a car. so we are all forced to stay at home and order in. and their were a few days that it was flooded outside the house. and today the flood came i our house already. its so disgusting.

so this time, i its not just the usual people. tina is an addition to the gang. we've been playing cranium, eating piZza and just hangging around. taking pictures of everything.

so for the whole weekend we do nothing but hangout at fifi's room and sing and play and do whatever. until we decided to go out and watch a movie. we were rushing coz we are going to be late for the movie and the only thing good is pirates of the carribean. we left the house and took two cabs going to glorietta but we got there 10-15 minutes late and we said that 15 minutes of the movies is quite long that we must have missed a lot from the movie already so we head towards the place we love best - TIMEZONE.

we played basketball and percussion masters and of courser our own world cup. it was so funny we made a bet that whoever loses would have to treat the winning team for ice cream. The game got really rough and it was really noisy as if you are really in the world cup rooting for beckham or ronaldo or cruz.

then we had dinner in ACCI and sang with the pianist a lot of songs and just laughed our asses of with singing and making jokes. taking pictures of course with every move and made every minute count because we had classes tomorrow. but my dad announced that we dont have class still the next day so stayed till late and the pianist was leaving.

felice calls me up and tells me tina wants to see me. i didn't know she was staying at the other house. i would have visited her already. instead of cleaning my room (cleaning this)i would rather talk to someone. so i got there and was telling stories and laughing about i can't remember what.

because of my late post. tina left the other day already. we got to bring her to the ayala museum. i was so cool. the only problem is that cameras are not allowed even if you pose with a lifesize cutout of jose rizal. you pay for an amount of money then you can't get a chance to show the world you've been to a museum for the first time.

if only i wasn't grounded tina. i would have had the chance to show you around more. and if only i don't have that much work in school. and if only i had a car. ehehe

the photoshop we just had to do

thats why we love photoshop!

i can't believe i have these personality disorders

Disorder	Rating
Paranoid:	High
Schizoid:	Low
Schizotypal:	High
Antisocial:	High
Borderline:	Moderate
Histrionic:	High
Narcissistic:	Very High
Avoidant:	Low
Dependent:	Moderate
Obsessive-Compulsive:	Moderate
-- Personality Disorder Test -- -- Personality Disorder Information --

the weekend i am missing

three weeks ago, my three brothers and i were left to the supervision my great lola. as i said that my mum and dad went to for god knows where to find our list of bilin and other pasalubong.
so for that week, literally me and my cousins were partying every night and literally till the sun is shining. no sleep. no lonely night. just having fun.

my cousin, utoy, and i were making up different pulutan for different drinks and every night different topics of conversation with the camera and a bottle of a different alcohol is present. we would talk about anything and we would try to invite just anyone so that it wouldn't end up that we are the only ones who are drinking. as they say that the more the merrier. i say that is true but you shouldn't underestimate the power of two!

from the day that my mum left for japan, i have invited friends over for dinner and little drinking. and that little drinking turned out to be the whole week of freedom for me. everynight since june 30, we didn't miss a night of not staying up till morning. with little sleep we would head back to school and would meet up at home for the next house party we wanted to have.

it was so much fun that i wished my mum and dad would have stayed for another day or two. with my situation, it was one of the best things that ever happened to me since the day i started to go to school again this term. i have been prevented from going anywhere or to do anything that i really want. except i guess for shopping.

i was talking to a friend of mine the other day when she visited me one evening in starbucks waiting for my last class. she was telling me that i can't seem to stop to amaze me that i have survived months of just waiting. i was telling her that i have to. i can't breakdown in the middle when i already made it this far. in the inside, i have been afraid of a lot of stuff. my future, the present and the past.

the week that i have partied made me think of these things but still had the chance to unwind. to free myself from some things. but it also made me feel that i have to go back and make everything straight and finish life in college.

when the cat is left alone, her friends come out and play

my mum and dad are out of the country right this very minute. my dad is in the states having a vacation and my mum went to japan this morning. i am left with my brothers and my lola. that wouldn't be a problem at all.

HOUSE PARTY!

tonight we're gonna party all night long. this post will be a pre-post for all the people out there to know that i'm gonna have fun tonight. i'm gonna make the most out of this week so i could survive the rest of the two months.

BOOZE!

MUSIC!

FOOD!

FRIENDS!

The perfect combo to make a perfect party! to chill and have fun all night long.

earlier i went to the grocery and this is what i bought.

LASINGAN NA TO!

LTO is not that bad

i can't believe im back in the LTO fixing my license for the second day. i don't know if its the priveledge of getting my license already or the people i get to meet. yes. you can meet people inside the LTO. and they're not just people but they're cute as well.

it started yesterday when right after school i planned to go to makati to let some people fix me up with my license. of course i don't want to get into those lines and wait for hours so that they could get atleast 5 pictures and signatures. i should've asked them to pay my talent fee.

there was no issuance of new license in makati. so we tried going to mandaluyong coz we know some people there. when we got there unfortch, there is no more LTO there. so we end up going to tayuman which is very near my house. i got my drug test, the aid told me to pee in the bottle but i couldn't for like 10 minutes inside the small cubicle. and it was kinda gross coz i have my period. well lets not go into details. so when i got there, we got ourselves a fixer, the one who always runs our papers in the LTO. so i thought it would only take an hour or so.

but i was wrong. so wrong. it took me two. not two hours but two days. yes. the most efficient system of the LTO can process your papers for two days. for P1000, the wait is worth it.

so i got there, there was this other guy they were trying to fix. so i just sat there waited for my name to be called and just texted everyone i know so i wont get bored. after 30 minutes, i couldn't help myself, i talked to the other guy beside me coz he was kinda cute and looks kinda mabait. i know.... its called flirting.

we got to talk for four hours straight and we just talked, talked, talked, and talked. i mean we just didn't stop. we were exchanging stories of whatever comes up. stories about everything. families, friends and whatever. he always asks and i answer then i ask back but he answers with patawa and asks me another question that i will just answer again without thinking that he wasn't really talking that much. of course i got to talk and i don't really mind. but i got some info on him too. he's a taekwondo something, lives in novaliches kingspoint subdivision, from batangas and studying in PCU(just in the same place as my school - TAFT).

until the person called us, told us that we have to go again tomorrow for our exams. FUCKER!!!! i really hate LTO for that. but then again, it was worth it.

so we said our goodbyes when my mum called. they were outside already picking me up. i totally forgot to ask for his number so i could message him when i get back today. i was so me. i never get the numbers of people. they usually ask for mine. yabang!!! haha

when i woke up the next day, i thought of my plan for the day. time im going to the LTO, how and the little details. it was so obvious i really wanted to go. i told my mum i would just go straight from school. i'll just ride the LRT. haha i was so excited!

my driver texted me and told me to go home first, we have it was so sad coz i could have gone earlier. but then something would have happened instead. so i was all good.

we got there and we were looking for the fixer again and found the guy with marvin. that's the name of the guy i was talking to the entire time. it was so clear that if i didn't talk to this guy, i would have a frown on my license right now. he was there and he was wearing red(like he told me yesterday) funny!

he was finished with his exam already and he was suppose to wait for me but some guy pushed him to the exam room. he showed me the way to the exam room and told me what i have to do. i finished the test in 30 minutes because it was kinda easy. but i was confused with the street lines. broken yellow lines and the like. i didn't read that part of the reviewer. but i wasn't really scared about it coz everything else is common sense. so when i went down, i was waiting for the result, marvin was there saving me a seat. (ehem!) so talked again and stopped when our names would be called and go back to the topic we were discussing before it was INTERRUPTED by the LTO guys.

he got his license an hour earlier than i did. he was so hungry that he invited me to lunch. in Jollibee. nothing really special just an ordinary lunch with a new friend of mine. but then again, do i consider it as a date? he paid for the i ate.

so when we were there he asked what i wanted and i didn't hesitate to order but i was really not hungry so i just ordered a spaghetti meal. and he was asking me if that would be all. maybe because i was fat that's why he was doubting me if im in a sort of diet or something. but i really can't eat much. when he got back, he bought me the spaghetti with iced tea and french fries and pizza meatpie. i was so full! i couldn't eat anymore but he was forcing me to eat. he didn't want me to feel that im abusing him or something. which i wasn't really.

so when i was heading back, he told me that he's coming with me to wait until i get my license. i was so thankful he helped a lot for two days now.

i finally got my license.













if only he could read my blog right now, he would be able to see my license. when i got it i didn't let him see anything. even my picture. he was eager to look at it and i was just convinced i wont let him. wahahaha. i made him a deal instead. i would let him see my license if i would bump into him again. so he said he was going to visit me at home.

when we were going home, YES! he accompanied me until i got home. inside our gate. hay!!! LIFE! i wouldn't even think that that would happen to me in the LTO. but you will never really know what to expect. coz i didn't until now.

happy birthday!

its my mum's birthday. she turns 49 today.

my dad asked me to buy roses and he said

"200 pieces ha. or 100 na lang. baka kulang basta punuin mo ng red and white roses yung bahay"

4 down 10 to go!

it has been one month of attending class. i've been feeling the pressure in me. i can't help but feel that i'm missing the nicotine that i've left five months marked today. i can't believe that i have survived five months without it. it has been my friend for the long time. the friend i could rely when i don't have someone. the friend i have been with along the ups and downs of my life.

i'll give myself the benefit of the doubt, butim guessing that one of these days, i would go back to my old habits. it is true they say that old habit die young and i believe those people when they say this. and now that i have proven i have control over myself, i wouldn't have the problem if i start to smoke again.

i have control. i think!

for the past four months in school, i have learned how to eat alone.talk to people i don't know that much. and to approach a lot of people. i know its going to be the term i would always get exhausted buti would learn alot duringmy last year here.

i am starting to learn how to balance my time and mingle more with people. iknow that im creating more friends because the contacts in my phone are still increasing and 250 slots in my SIM card is not enough.

i just want to add that i have a new phone. my dad gave it to me last night. as usual, because we had an argument, he iskinda bribing me not to get angry. to let me feel that he is just doing those things formy own good.no hard feelings.

addicted to L

"the way that we live....
dan-dada-dada-dan
dada-dan"

i can't stop thinking about yoda!

over the past few days, i got hooked with the most interesting tv series i have watched. i can't help but picture it everywhere. on my way to school i keep bumping into lesbians that made me think of the program again.

did i mention that the program is a story about lesbians? yes. its a story of lesbians friends in west hollywood and how they go on with life dealing with problems they are faced with. they try to figure out what they want in life most and balanced these things with their career.

don't get so confused okay. i got addicted to L because of the story. L does not represent only lesbian. it also means life, love, lust, luscious, i want to say crisp-ey but the word doesn't start with the letter L. any word that you can think of that starts with the letter L is the meaning of L.

i got so obsessed that i watched the 2 seasons for two days and haven't slept since then. it kept me thinking about life and what i want and need. not that im a lesbian but because the problems they encounter are problems of any normal person. its just that its more complicated with them because the relationship is with the same sex.

when i finished the whole program. the only thing in my head were they funny scenes and the intimate sex scenes in it. so when i was saying that when i kept bumping into lesbians on my way to school, my mind just goes wild and wonders if these people do what the actors do in the show. do they have the same situation to those characters in the show. are they really out or are they just that?

i can't seem to figure it because of course i cannot relate to them.

i was just saying to my cousin last night how i was dreaming of the episodes. it was funny, passionate and true. i'm just afraid that i would end up dreaming about it but i would the character in the show already. EWE!

but what if. i would never know. what if i have the tendency to be gay? i would never really know. the characters in the show were telling their 'coming out' story thats when they finally knew what they're real identity is. there are many whatifs in this world and you will never know the answer until you experience it yourself. feelings are hard to explain. you may have the picture in your head but the fact that you haven't experienced it you can't say that you're not that type of person.

all im say it that there is a little gay person in us. he or she may either grow in us or leave us eventually. hypothetically, if im correct everyone has a chance of being gay in the future. im just saying.