i got the talk and got to think that maybe dreams do come true

lately i haven't been doing anything productive. since i quit (but when telling older people its resigned) from my previous job, i just got to watch more, sleep more and eat more that i did before. thats why i am fat! i admit it. i haven't been in my best shape. because all day i just sit around my ass and mind nothing at all. so it is safe to say that when i think, its a means of exercise for my body as well.

just the other day i was eating lunch with my dad and my mum. we got to talk about this cousin of mine, who is in a top position in HSBC. good pay, good everything. she has it all. of course my dad doesn't expect me to be just like her coz he knows how lazy i am and i'm not the type to be working in an office. pretty much i'm so stubborn i can't really work well with the authorities.

so we were talking about new cameras inside the house.. these are my lomo cameras!








and this is my new digital camera...












my mum asked me if i am going to take photography classes and i got to think about it. my dad told me to take it so i have proper knowledge and then take whatever course i like. coz as long as he cans till pay he is encouraging me to do it.

but studying again? i had to drop my second degree just to be done with that and now that i'm finally free from school, i'll be coming back. thats insane. just like the rain outside. fuck! i hope the flood at home wont be too bad. i'm here at my friends house hanging around coz i'm so bored at home.

i got to think. my plan of studying abroad. to get away and learn independence. or kahit work na lang muna whatever. but the thought of working makes my heart sick. i have studied entrepreneurship for three years in one of the finest schools in the country and i'm just going to be an employee of a company. i really don't mesh well with higher power. but if the pay is really good and its not that stressful i'll be thinking about it.

so that same day when my dad told me to take any course i like, i went online and applied for a short course in culinary. to those i know who heard me tell them that cooking is not really taught but it is practiced... i can't practice at home. well now i am eating my words... i need training and with proper teaching, i can be more of an expert. i can be called a chef?

it has always been my passion to satisfy people. even if i'm such snob. i still like the recognition that i have made someone smile. and with my cooking or anything i concoct inside the kitchen with basically everything inside it, my friends and relatives would surely love.

so i started thinking of possible options i have. and with the people i know and the resources i have i just hope that this would all happen the way i pictured it. it doesn't have to be as smooth but i hope dreams do come true